I can totally understand your pessimism and skepticism, but I must caution to not lose yourself in it. Things will definitely get worse before they get better, and shit is going to go down. But I believe there is a silver lining to darkness and suffering, in that it will allow us new opportunities to organize, resist and become who we truly are on the inside. Obviously it won’t be sunshine and roses, but we communists have faced worse odds before and won.