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Cake day: November 11th, 2024

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  • I’ve got some

    • enjoying things is a sin and if you enjoy something it will be taken from you or used to punish you
    • wanting something is a sin and expressing your desire means you will never get it
    • having emotions is a sin, and expressing your emotions is a sin, unless they are emotions you’re supposed to have
    • disagreeing with an adult is a sin
    • children are property with no rights at all








  • Oh same on the internalized gay is bad. Growing up I got made fun of for anything that I did that could be remotely interpreted as gay. I didn’t really accept myself being bi until my 30s because I felt this intense shame every time I felt anything towards men. I was constantly hiding my real self and so paranoid of anyone noticing something real about me in case they would start to put it together and expose me. I still haven’t really gotten over those feelings completely. A lot of that is neurodivergent masking as well. Shit’s complicated.


  • So here’s a weird thing to think about. I’m a bi trans woman, and for a large part of my life I was unaware of those things about myself. I sometimes felt sexually attracted to men but I never enjoyed seeing gay men do stuff romantically or in porn and found it uncomfortable. This was very confusing for me. The reason it was uncomfortable was because I was trying to put myself in their position in my head, but because I’m not really a man it felt wrong so I thought I didn’t really like men. I’m not saying homophobes have that experience, they probably don’t, but ones own sexuality can be very confusing when you aren’t living your own truth because you drank the coolaid of heteronormativity.





  • If I remember correctly facial hair growth is most strongly driven by DHT, which is also responsible for male pattern baldness. You could take finasteride to block the conversion of testosterone into DHT to prevent both maybe. I think it would also reduce clitoral growth since that’s also driven by DHT, which may or may not be something you want so trade offs. Just some food for thought.