Have you tried meditating? I find it helps with what you are experiencing with panic. Consciously practicing letting unwanted thoughts pass can help when difficult moments occur in everyday life. A good book on the subject that I’ve read is Full catastrophe living by Jon Kabat-Zinn. Hope you find some relief.

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