Well you’ll be happy to know that Grind r never followed through
It sounds like you chose the big room so no money for you.
I’d take the cash, to be honest.
A mix of ensuring that your role is covered while you’re away so you don’t feel any responsibility, and forcing yourself to focus on other things like your family. Spend time with them.
They liked the look of someone who smiled at them. That’s not a fetish it happens all the time.