Half my brain shut down reading this

Thank you for triggering my very specific “7” vocal stim where I just repeat it in my brain forever lol

Dissociation

My brain h lmao

Only 7 but that’s ignoring the chaos of the 24+ headmates in the system lmfao

I don’t tick enough boxes but the extent of my psychological issues is so great the BPD box may as well take up the entire board 💀

Affectionate blowing of smoke in someone’s face lol

Written by two of my headmates–Mallory, and Marloe. Mallory is the self-loather, with Marloe being a therapist. At the end, they merge, and become my “I”.

I swear every other meme here involves BPD TwT

BPD 🤝 BPD

(Partner has C-PTSD so that makes it even spicier)

Stop describing me wtf

I decided to find out what a shongle is; From the word shoe, containing “sho”, which means a low-cut fabric for the foot, and dangle, meaning to hang loosely. A shongle is most likely a type of loose sock. Makes sense–you could, most likely, have your sock shit in.

:³

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Wizard ^w^

Basically me yeag

There is one headmate in my system that communicates only through vocalisations, touch, movement and beyond, and pretty much just is an animal. The majority can communicate through all these ways as well–usually when emotions are too strong. My excited sea lion decided to call getting really excited “waggling”, which is combined tail wagging and wiggling. I taught a specific other friend about this as well (turned out to be a therian), and they now do it uncontrollably. They eventually mentioned they used to start shaking when they were really excited, which resolved as soon as they started wiggling instead. Form of stimming, in fact. All therians (all plural as well) in my sphere naturally respond to each other in ways like this. Hell, even animals themselves have systems which I’ll adapt to (I’ve been called a dog whisperer a lot).

There is one particular exception regarding animal identity–Vaida, my manic/psychotic state. She is a “Saturnian”–a cosmic being. She’s essentially a liquid form. It’s not unique to her, as it seems every manic/psychotic state I’ve seen seems to describe a similar fundamental form–boundless, chaotic, free from the confines of the defined.

I have executive control over all integrated parts of my system (two are not yet fully cooperative). I can become plural or singlet as needed. In all states, I can forcibly front, or headmates may front naturally, and indeed take control from each other for any variety of reasons (they like to playfully bash each other, and do tend to act like personified versions of their species and function). Splitting and merging may even be done as an almost trivial task, though that’s obviously likely to lead to issues when done outside of warranted reason–even if it’s all technically me, done by my consent.

I am conscious just as much as we are conscious. It’s quite an elaborately diversified and highly structured system.

On a nerdy note, I discovered that DID is literally just a normal person but with depersonalisation, derealisation and amnesia between different brain regions, and things like Internal Family Systems or certain types of OSDD are just different versions of the same underlying mechanics.

Everyone is a system. This is also why certain people with otherkin identities sometimes report multiple forms. The parts are the whole is the parts.

I personally have 18 alters (mostly animal forms), plus an executive controller and a singlet, as if running a human as software on hardware. Certain behaviours and relations seen with alters reflect the underlying function of personality disorders and neurological issues (I have BPD because of course, and also OCPD). You can talk to any side of me you wish, and I can talk to any part of myself from any part of myself. Very deep and interesting psychology stuff–it’s a field of research for me.

I can do Jim Carrey levels of emotive expressions so I’m gonna push the silly to the max tbh

Being offered help

Hey don’t forget the part where you’re faking all of your pain for attention, that part is really important