• TotallynotJessica@lemmy.worldOPM
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    3 months ago

    Yeah. A Q&A vid from 2017 when he had like 10k subs has her wearing make-up and jokingly saying “no” when asked if they were a man. Even their minecraft avatar isn’t particularly gendered. She didn’t post an Omegle troll video on an unadvertised second channel for money. He didn’t start streaming for money. F1nn actually thought no one would watch it and they’d be done with it in a month, but no such luck.

    He sometimes talks about whether or not they’d present fem if it wasn’t for streaming. She doubts that he would, but I feel like it might be the opposite. If F1nn didn’t have the excuse of money to fall back on, the egg might have cracked sooner.

    Transfems often enjoy force fem fantasies because they take the difficult decision out of our hands. Being able to point to an external force helps us not question our identity while still feeling euphoric. It protects us from admitting that we really want it.

    Despite being out as trans, F1nn still has mega imposter syndrome. It’s amazing how someone can claim they don’t experience euphoria while admitting she feels so much more comfortable with his appearance now. If F1nn didn’t have a monetary incentive, they wouldn’t have as many excuses.

    I’ve followed F1nn for a long time, and I honestly thought he was cis until late 2022. I think genderfluid is a totally accurate label for her, but it might just be hard for them to accept. I’ve certainly had imposter syndrome about being bi, as being totally gay or totally straight is an easier narrative. The truth just isn’t simple sometimes.

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      3 months ago

      Have they actually announced their pronouns as she/her? I haven’t watched in a while, but last I did, it was still he/him. I know they still make no attempt to use a feminine voice, but I also don’t know if there’s any intention to start either.