For me I feel bad from both masculine pronouns and feminine pronouns, but the latter is because I don’t trust cishet people that they understand me. Honestly I just wish I could forget my mother tongue and only speak English. It’s so hard to avoid gendered verbs and I can’t ask others to do so as well as it is sometimes downright impossible in a reasonable time frame. So I would avoid gendered stuff early and scale it with confidence/presentation and time. It’s different getting called a girl when trying out a fabulous dress and when you look like shit after waking up early in transition. But that might be because I have trust issues and there is no way in hell I would give my family my pure feelings, because they’ve proven to be a bit shit.
For me I feel bad from both masculine pronouns and feminine pronouns, but the latter is because I don’t trust cishet people that they understand me. Honestly I just wish I could forget my mother tongue and only speak English. It’s so hard to avoid gendered verbs and I can’t ask others to do so as well as it is sometimes downright impossible in a reasonable time frame. So I would avoid gendered stuff early and scale it with confidence/presentation and time. It’s different getting called a girl when trying out a fabulous dress and when you look like shit after waking up early in transition. But that might be because I have trust issues and there is no way in hell I would give my family my pure feelings, because they’ve proven to be a bit shit.