I was similarly “gifted” and wound up in a similar situation, just not homeless quite yet. Sorry for what you’re going through man, they lied when they said intelligence is rewarded under capitalism.
Same here. I was labeled as gifted in first grade, but my home life was filled with neglect and abuse. A couple decades of that, plus being bullied at school, left me with CPTSD that makes trusting anyone nearly impossible. On the surface, I might look like I built a decent career, but the truth is I have spent my adult life wearing masks that barely fit whatever situation I am in.
Inside, I am constantly fighting the urge to just leave everything, convinced I am useless and only pretending to be a real person. Now that I am in the back half of my life, the weight of it has worn me down and each day gets harder. The only justice in the world that which we make, but we cannot trust justice in a world where worthiness is conflated with wealth.
I was similarly “gifted” and wound up in a similar situation, just not homeless quite yet. Sorry for what you’re going through man, they lied when they said intelligence is rewarded under capitalism.
Same here. I was labeled as gifted in first grade, but my home life was filled with neglect and abuse. A couple decades of that, plus being bullied at school, left me with CPTSD that makes trusting anyone nearly impossible. On the surface, I might look like I built a decent career, but the truth is I have spent my adult life wearing masks that barely fit whatever situation I am in.
Inside, I am constantly fighting the urge to just leave everything, convinced I am useless and only pretending to be a real person. Now that I am in the back half of my life, the weight of it has worn me down and each day gets harder. The only justice in the world that which we make, but we cannot trust justice in a world where worthiness is conflated with wealth.